We have been here before, but this time this really is it! It is Armageddon!
The Four Horsemen of the Apocalypse have just ridden past at a gallop, to the serenading of a Soprano.
The Capital Punter Blog is over: This is the end.
Having been here before in September 2012 and then been talked off from the ledge, I want to be very clear: there will be no reprieve, no change of mind. This is it. In fact, due to the time lag on here, I have already departed.
I only resumed blogging owing to the opinions of a few I valued and because there was still quite a bit I still wanted to write. However, times have changed. Moreover, I have changed.
Firstly, I am no longer a Punter and have not been for a quite some time and I will never be returning to it.
I have also covered all I feel I want to, or can on my own, and many of the ideas I had, but not yet covered, will remain unwritten.
The offers of help I had which helped to enticed me back have largely failed to materialise, so, as I said when I resumed, this blog will not last without the input of others. Therefore, it will come as no surprise then I am ending it now.
This is the final post, there will be no more.
It is not a case of my future lies elsewhere, as it has been there for a while. I have other things I have moved onto, so this is where my energy and effort will be directed from here on.
The future of Capital Punter Blog?
What happens to the site now? If I am totally honest, I am not sure it really matters that much. Despite what some have said, I remain unconvinced of it as a resource, rather it is a collection of random opinions from a random guy, somewhere in Old London Town.
I know some of you have enjoyed reading it and I appreciate your attention and I have enjoyed communicating with a few of you about it. However, everything has a lifespan and this blog has reached its “best before” date, so it is time it is discarded into the recycling bin of internet obscurity.
However, in deference to those who have claimed they value it, I will leave the site live for others to read in the future.
It is not often one has the luxury of writing one’s one eulogy. Although it isn’t really my style, maybe you will indulge me on this one occasion with the luxury of a short review?
Capital Punter was an alter-ego who wrote about the Escort world for 2 years. Actually he never really existed as a punter, as I never punted under this name and I was always honest with those I saw about my writings, probably way too honest for my own good, if the truth be known.
Probably my greatest failing with this blog has been I feel I was too open about myself. I have probably revealed more in posts than I should have done about my feelings and emotions and laid myself way too bare. I was probably also too candid about my experiences.
As for the ladies I have met, it is true that although I had some real low points and incidents I would rather have avoided, on the whole, I have met some really charming ladies, whom it was a pleasure to know, for however a brief time, and there have been some incredible experiences which I shall always cherish.
My greatest failing though has probably been I cared about those I saw too much. Not in a manner which ever transgressed anyone’s boundaries, more that I just cared about their wellbeing beyond the occasional meetings or brief times we spent. However, that is just me. I make no excuses or apologies for it and some episodes I have documented here have hurt and upset me greatly, other incidents are purely for me to know about.
Although there were plenty of things about the scene which did irk, I have absolutely no desire to do a hatchet job now, just because my time is now spent elsewhere. How shallow would that be? I was always a volunteer and it gave me many great experiences for 4 1/2 years, so it would be disingenuous of me in the extreme to focus on a few issues or people, almost as a justification for leaving. The truth is, I have changed and the real dissatisfaction was with myself not with anyone I saw or did not even ever meet. Nothing in life is perfect, especially me: just ask those who knew me!
I had a moment of stark realisation recently when reading a blog by someone else, which really made me jolt and I twigged why I found the transient nature of the relationships increasingly hard to take, which was probably the single largest reason for my departure.
Essentially this gent had said how, sooner or later, we all move on and he realised the ladies he saw were only of a temporary nature. Sooner or later they would find a boyfriend, get married or just change. Even though I concede nothing in life remains the same, it is nice to retain some continuity and not to feel we are always starting over. Unfortunately, I found I was starting over way too often for my liking.
Well, dear friends, sooner or later, we are all gone and, as far as this blog goes, that is me finished now and Capital Punter, whoever he really was, is now also gone.
I send my sincere thanks to those of you who have read with an open mind, be it occasionally or on a regular basis. To those who I have had the good fortunate to get to know as a result of this blog, it has been a pleasure and I hope a few of you may stay in touch in the way I have left open. The Twitter account will remain so others may find the existence of the blog, but the account will be dormant and unmonitored.
I hope my thoughts, expressed in my posts may have been of interest to some of you and if they have offered some enlightenment, it has made the whole process worthwhile.
I am sure there will mixed feelings about the end of this blog. However, I feel I have made this decision for the right reasons, which I hope the more generous of you will understand and respect. I wish you all well, be you an escort, a punter or a curious reader.